I mean seriously, how do you just move on from being completely in love with someone? I guess that I just don’t find love an easy emotion to push down, forget about, and move on from. ESPECIALLY since my entire life I have been taught and surrounded by the idea that “love is all you need” and “love is the only way”. What do you even have when you don’t share a deep love with another person? Nothing, that’s what my life has felt like since our love died. nothing.

you came back into my dreams again last night. I know it’s probably the only place ill ever talk to you again. there’s just so many things about you that I know I will never find in anyone else, which is both a really good thing and a really shitty thing. It’s good because there were things about you that made you such a horrible person at times. It’s shitty because I genuinely connected with you on some levels that I’ve never felt with anyone else.

I don’t think I’ll ever be able to be satisfied in a relationship again because of the wounds you left me with.